Pleassse...enough recooperation!
Days at Tahoe were fairly peaceful. I love being surrounded by towering pines with plump blue jays flitting from tree to tree.
Here at beautiful tahoe my siatica/left hip side has flared up. I can hardly walk around the house. I am mostly housebound... just "hanging out". We had a few couples over. Carl/Barry has a knack at entertaining and making folks feel welcomned. Hmmm... We also do not have TV reception. I would be by myself during the day while they played golf, I had OLD videos...I have read and read...I am read out. I am ready to GET OUT back to Dublin.
Running dialog:
I have this running dialog in my head regarding "how Suzanne is changing from this earth shattering/death defiance experience"
Something has happened...an Innerpeace. I feel relaxed, content, centered. It feels to me that I feel the "good stuff" in magnitude and the "bad/negative stuff" feels like it is muffled.
There is an innerpeace that wont let me go to the drama...AAAHHH...relief.
On another note:
Kaiser is now not willing to do blood test, CT scan, epo shots at Dr Rubins pace of request. Dr Rubin has requested a ct scan. I have had 10 chemo treatments. Lets at least get a bench mark to see if this chemo is working.
Kaiser says a CT scan is ordered when chemo is thru, HELLO..They dont know much about the type of cancer I have, they are "trying" this type of chemo. Chemo could go on for years.
With respectful pressing (when I wanted to rip his face off)to my Kaiser doctor, he said OK maybe at the end of Oactober. I am researching where I can get it done at my cost (if doable). I just wont let myself get all worked up about it, oh, the injustice of kaiser...I just dont go there.
I see it in my head when I rest.
Somehow, somewhere, through some navigation...I see myself on a stage saying... "Good morning, I'm Suzanne Robles and I am a cancer survivor. I am excited to ............. thats how it runs and runs in my mind. Looks exciting and fun. Ya never know whats around that corner. Stay tuned. Love, Suzanne
Days at Tahoe were fairly peaceful. I love being surrounded by towering pines with plump blue jays flitting from tree to tree.
Here at beautiful tahoe my siatica/left hip side has flared up. I can hardly walk around the house. I am mostly housebound... just "hanging out". We had a few couples over. Carl/Barry has a knack at entertaining and making folks feel welcomned. Hmmm... We also do not have TV reception. I would be by myself during the day while they played golf, I had OLD videos...I have read and read...I am read out. I am ready to GET OUT back to Dublin.
Running dialog:
I have this running dialog in my head regarding "how Suzanne is changing from this earth shattering/death defiance experience"
Something has happened...an Innerpeace. I feel relaxed, content, centered. It feels to me that I feel the "good stuff" in magnitude and the "bad/negative stuff" feels like it is muffled.
There is an innerpeace that wont let me go to the drama...AAAHHH...relief.
On another note:
Kaiser is now not willing to do blood test, CT scan, epo shots at Dr Rubins pace of request. Dr Rubin has requested a ct scan. I have had 10 chemo treatments. Lets at least get a bench mark to see if this chemo is working.
Kaiser says a CT scan is ordered when chemo is thru, HELLO..They dont know much about the type of cancer I have, they are "trying" this type of chemo. Chemo could go on for years.
With respectful pressing (when I wanted to rip his face off)to my Kaiser doctor, he said OK maybe at the end of Oactober. I am researching where I can get it done at my cost (if doable). I just wont let myself get all worked up about it, oh, the injustice of kaiser...I just dont go there.
I see it in my head when I rest.
Somehow, somewhere, through some navigation...I see myself on a stage saying... "Good morning, I'm Suzanne Robles and I am a cancer survivor. I am excited to ............. thats how it runs and runs in my mind. Looks exciting and fun. Ya never know whats around that corner. Stay tuned. Love, Suzanne
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